Step 2
We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
What it means
The frantic reaching, checking and explaining is not sane, and I cannot reason my own way out of it from inside it. Something outside me has to be part of this.
How abandonment distorts it
If people were unreliable early, trust in anything larger feels naive. My system prefers vigilance to faith, because vigilance feels like doing something.
In this marriage
My wife is not my higher power. Making her one is what turns ordinary distance into an emergency.
Inside me
The power greater than me can be God, and it can also be the group, the program, the phone call I make instead of the text I send.
- Do not use faith as a way to skip the work. Surrender is not passivity, and it does not mean tolerating what actually requires a boundary.
God, I am awake and I am afraid.
I cannot control her heart, her timing, or the outcome.
I surrender the outcome without surrendering myself.
Show me what is mine to do today.
Keep me honest, sober, and kind.
Whatever happens, I will not abandon myself.
- Do one thing this week purely because a person further along told you to, without needing to agree first.